I am never quite sure how to say thank you to you on here. The words “Thank you” always look very small on my screen and I worry that they don’t really convey just how much I mean them. But I do. Mean them that is.
It would seem that sharing is a good thing then … I certainly felt better after writing about it and I felt better as well after talking it through with my midwife. I feel hugely better after reading through your comments and experiences and I am so pleased that my post has actually helped some people too. Thank you for sharing them with me. I would like to write back to all of you really, unfortunately my small shouty person doesn’t allow me as much keyboard time as I have become accustomed to. (Even when feeding he is trying to get in on the act! Sometimes he even gets his hand on the touchpad and manages to move the cursor!) Hello to the local people who read my blog that I didn’t realise read it too ;-)
On Thursday I made myself go out and we went to a baby & toddler group in the church hall which I was hugely proud of myself for doing. It was (loud and chaotic as toddlers are!) really good and I spoke to some people and got some more info on other groups to go to as well and indeed went to one on Friday which was much smaller and just for babies – really lovely. It’s a relief to go somewhere where you can talk about your baby to people who also want to talk about their baby and will listen to you talk about yours, and it’s ok to feed your baby and nobody minds if your baby cries. And there were biscuits and that’s always good too.
I’m a bit funny about meeting people I think. I always get an attack of the shyness beforehand and think “waaah I’m far too scared to go and meet people, I’m not sociable enough and I’m too scared to talk to anyone!” but in reality I usually find that I’m not scared and I just get on with things. How I think of myself in my head is different from the reality and I’m better than I think I am at it. I think it’s TTB really, going into a hall full of toddlers and older babies with a seven week old baby (admittedly quite a large one) is quite an ice breaker. Besides, now I have something in common with the other people there (a baby) and I don’t feel as inadequate as I usually do as a result.
So yes … sharing is good, and so is getting out to meet people. I want to send you all a big hug as well *************hug************* for being so supportive to me, I’ve really needed it and think I would probably have snapped long before now if I hadn’t had this blog and the lovely people who read it.